For many years growing up, I was always worried about what other people thought of me. I worried so much, at times, that I would even base my decisions on the "what other people thought factor". Now, there were a variety of reasons why I apparently didn't have a high level of self-confidence in those days. As I learned more about myself, I learned on my own that I can do good things and this helped me build that self-confidence. I would like to say that today I have improved on this self-confidence and feel confident in the things I do. I also feel like that I have a strong sense of reason. I am a thinker to a point, but I am used to thinking on the fly and not really dwelling on anything for too long. I want there to be solid reasoning for the things I do, but I don't want to take forever to make a decision either. I think my job has helped me with this "quick thinking" thing I do.
I still have a little bit to go, however, with this "what people think of me" thing. This is going to be one of my resolutions for the new year of 2015. I'd like to think that I have gotten a head start on this resolution as I have started to open up and not worry so much about what others think. This has been a healer for me and I think it is going to lead to wonderful things in the future. I will continue to not let what others think affect my decision making. I will be making the best decisions for me because that is what is important for each individual that is alive in the one life they have. I still tend to hold back somewhat at work, but there is a variety of reasons for doing this. The first is that I am a paraprofessional. At the school I work at, this position carries a little more responsibility than the typical paraprofessional position at most schools, but sometimes I speak out of place. The second is that I don't want to come off as that guy that is labeled, "The Know-It-All". I don't know it all and each year that I continue to work in this field is additional year of learning different scenarios that I may encounter as an educator. The third reason is because I don't want to be known as a loud mouth. This is the one that stays on my brain often at work, because I don't want to be that guy and sometimes I think I come off that way. So, for 2015, I will continue to make choices that are best for me. I think that is part of a bigger overall resolution for 2015, which is to be more healthy. Becoming healthier takes steps, tough steps, that take a lot of commitment. The first step that I took was in November of 2013 when I quit drinking soda pop. I have stuck to this. Now it is time for the next step. I am nervous, but today I committed to joining a "Biggest Loser" challenge at work. I am nervous, but excited for this next step. It's funny how you figure out how you want to live as time goes on. I look forward to taking care of myself and not taking what others think about me to heart. Don't get me wrong, I value some people's opinions more than others. At the end of the day though, I have to live with me. Everyone else can run and hide (LOL), but I am going to take care of me this year and here on out.
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